wondering what it would take?

We recently gave notice to leave the house parent job. Currently our last day is May 23rd, but our supervisor asked what it would take for us to stay until June 15th. We could see some kids graduate and it would give some closure to the end of the school year, also they would have a chance to move the kids that don't leave to other houses. It helps then because the enrollment is lower in the summer and they could close our house down until more parents could be found. The benefits for us could be to get to move together instead of in phases, and we could spend more time together.

On the flip side there is the huge relief of being done and right now our brains are focused on the end of May, and being able to have free time to spend with the people who live here that we will miss. Darren will be in california looking for a job and hopefully making more money than if we stay, and we can have time to workout and take care of our bodies and do the things we are currently longing to do.

So what would it take? If it is money, then how much? and if time off, how much? what is the limit or the quantity of our time? How much is our time worth?

Yesterday

Darren and I were sitting on the porch yesterday in the sun
K: "What are you looking at?'
D: "My arms and legs, it is amazing how white I am, there are no tan lines at all! I didn't even know I could get this white."
K: " I know it used to happen to me when I lived here regularly, but there were even some winters that was able to maintain tan lines all winter.
D: "Yeah, this mole is usually the lightest thing on my arm"
K: "I usually gauge it by having bathing suit lines, but the other day I noticed there are none. I am as white as my bum, ass white, maybe even as white as when we were born."
D: "I came out blue, so I was not white."
K: "oh, ha ha"

Working on life

We are trying to find jobs, and a place to live in California! It is leading to a ton of searching and wondering what we are meant to do and the plans God has for us! If anyone knows of jobs you think we would be good at please let us know.
Also in that today as I drove the hour to work I was thinking about how I never felt I would be good in an office, the monotony would just kill me. My revelation was that we are in a holding pattern and that is a big part of our unhappiness in the job.
I get up
drive 1 hour to work
take care of kids
get maybe 1.5 hours of down time
take care of kids
drive home
take care of kids
go to sleep
 . . . .  and repeat it all over again!

Darren
gets up
takes care of kids
answers phone calls and makes some
watches tv
takes care of kids
goes to sleep

and while somedays it is mixed up and exciting, it mostly is draining and we count the hours until bed, or quite time. We are ready to have quite when we want it, to be able to decorate how we want, to be able to find things, and have a beer with dinner if desired. To come and go as we please, and see people with out having to juggle attitudes and time off and freedom. We know we are doing good things, and trying to keep a positive mind about it! God has a plan and it will all work out!